I started my modeling journey when I was sixteen years old, though I had wanted to be a model since I was seven. My journey was delayed because when I turned eight, I got very sick, and my entire life was turned upside down. Because of my illnesses, I would then spend the next eight years dealing with insecurities that kept me from running headfirst into my dream of modeling.
My self-esteem, self-image, and self-confidence were non-existent during that time, and I did not know how to fix it for myself.
I have had many different medical devices over those years, such as feeding tubes (NG and GJ), a port, PICC lines and a central line. I have also had many different surgeries that left many scars on me, all located on my abdomen.
Me in the hospital at 8 years old (2013)
Because of this I felt that I didn’t belong in that glamorous world — that world with all the beautiful people I saw in magazines, on television, and in the runway shows that I loved to watch. I did not see anyone who had those things and that feeling of not belonging would just not leave me. I also didn’t know at the time how very wrong I was.
When I turned sixteen my world changed again, but so did everyone else’s. Covid was here and the world was locked down. I, like many others, turned to social media as an outlet to still feel connected to my friends and the outside world in general. For me, social media was what pulled me out of the negativity I felt towards myself and modeling. I found a community within my social media — a community of kind, accepting and wonderful people who helped me find my confidence and helped to change the narrative that I had of myself. They will never truly know how grateful I am for having found them. You know who you are!
If I had to pinpoint an event that really helped change my thinking, it was when I was accepted as an ambassador for “HIGO Apparel Leotards.” I had been a gymnast since I was three years old, so this was a good fit for me. I was nervous and didn’t know what to expect but soon found that the more I posted for them, the better I began to feel about myself. I began to think that maybe, just maybe, I could be a model after all. All I had to do was decide to let myself try, but I was still nervous.
Next, I became an ambassador for a clothing company named “Just BE 72.” This would prove to be one of the biggest steps forward in my modeling career. The beautiful mother-daughter duo who owns this company, Margaret and Lauren, saw past my medical devices and scars and offered me the chance to walk my very first runway show. This was LA Fashion Week 2023!
2023 LAFW walking for JustBE72
I walked the runway in a black cut-out dress that was not only beautiful but it did not hide my devices or scars. Walking for Just BE 72 in that first show was my “Ah-Ha!” Moment. It was the moment I finally accepted one hundred percent that I could not only be a model but maybe I could encourage others who, like me, felt insecure and like they didn’t belong, to step forward and live their dreams — whatever they may be — without hesitation.
Fast forward to now and I have walked in numerous runway shows, I have been published in two magazines, I am a social media influencer, and I am a brand ambassador for many other companies, such as Luv Ur Skin. I am also represented by Premiere Model Management and the UTG Agency.
I broke free of all my insecurities and found the courage to go after my dream. I now live my life with all the confidence, self-esteem and love for who I am and what I look like — medical devices, scars and all — that I lacked when I was younger. I learned to love myself as I am right now, at this moment in time. This is something I hope everyone can do for themselves.
Me at 18 years old in the black cut out runway dress I mentioned showing off my scars and medical device
My future plans include continuing to work hard towards my modeling goals, helping to change what’s seen as normal on the runway and starting my own charitable organization that will focus on getting funding for research for chronic pain and chronic GI issues. This is an area that is grossly underfunded, and it should not be. My organization will also focus on providing funding for individuals and families that are dealing with these things, should they need help with medical bills or just a helping hand of some kind. I want people to be able to worry less and live more and know that there is someone in their corner that sees them and cares. It is in the beginning stages at this time but I plan to have it up and running as soon as I can.
It is my hope that by sharing my journey, I will inspire all of you — kids, teens, and adults — to go for your dreams just as my parents, Noelle, Margaret, Lauren and many others have helped me go after mine. I am thankful for each and every person who has supported me along my journey and while I can’t name you all, just know that I love each and every last one of you! My life wouldn’t be the same without you.
My message to my friends, family and followers is this: I want you all to know that I am rooting for you, I believe in you, you are beautiful, and you are worthy. There will be naysayers along your path, and if you hear a “no,” don’t be discouraged. Keep going and stay kind, humble and passionate.
Work hard and your dreams can come true.
You’ve got this and I am so very proud of you!
20 years old and this is my main headshot for my comp card (2024 by Premiere Models, photographer is @md.editorial)
My name is Jess (Jaz) , I am 20 years old and a model/influencer. I live in the Orlando, FL area and love to inspire others and make them feel confident always! I hope reading this story relays that message.
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